I'm having a bit of a crisis right now.
I thought I felt a little bit better after meeting with my advisor, but I started to talk to my mom about the situation, and now I'm freaking out again.
I don't know if I made the right decision in coming out here.
I suppose I should have taken a bunch of warning signs when I got into the school, but I did really believe (and still believe) that I needed to come out West at any cost and experience life out here myself. So aside from the fact that I have yet to enjoy myself out here... (which I'm sure just comes with meeting people, etc)
My problem is that the classes I have to take for my program are mostly straight lit courses, with very few courses focused on looking at lit from a craft perspective. I'm not entirely certain if that's what other programs do, but it's what I expected. Now that I've realized that it's not this way, I'm wondering if I indeed should have just accepted New School's offer because it seems that THEY do have lit craft courses. And I'm wondering if I should try to transfer/reapply. I don't even know how that works - can I transfer from a 3 yr to a 2 yr? Will a place I rejected be likely to reaccept me? Should I just tough it out and see? (but deadlines happen soon!)
I don't know if I'm second guessing myself because I'm so miserable, but my mother made a good point - if I'm getting a graduate degree, I might as well make sure I'm getting out of it what I want and expected. If I'm not, then what's the point?
I seriously don't know what to do, and I'm about to kick myself for not having done my research more carefully. I was just so focused on wanting to come out here that it didn't seem to matter much at the time. Plus, I wanted a three year program, a more intimate program, and one that offered teaching experience. I really don't know what the right answer to this question is....